darthbluetac

It’s one thing when I get ghosted by someone on the street, or an ex, or a “seasonal” friend that I “self-prophesied” would not stick around. But when “you” ghosted me, it hit different.

I hear people use the excuse “that’s why I don’t go to church” as if the barfly they met last night would never leave them (just a joke because I’m sure they would not). However, we have standards. But the difference was I ran with you, cried with you, worshipped with you, prayed, even “tried to rap” but not well with you. We had dinners, worked services, talked for hours on the phone, and then as quick as you came in my life, you were gone.

I knew so much about you and loved you. You knew so much about me, you could speak my testimony for me on a stage lol. I get a text here and there and hear from others you are doing well. Every week I am asked by someone who assumed we were close how you are. They, like me, wrongly assumed my position with you. I thought I was positionally aligned in an important role in your life. However, you ghosted me. I hear it is because you were told to limit all conversations, stop all groups you led, think before you respond, as your new advisors have recommended this for your growth.

And as much as I cheer your endeavors to grow, I will never forget that bubbly energy of a woman that rolled through my home the day I met her. She was not only a businesswoman and, a mom, but also a fitness entrepreneur. She was a friend, an inspiration, and she was on fire. So many followed her lead and an entire team was formed due to her inspiration. She made waves, and young and old adored her every step. When you walked away, you left carnage. Because anything not done with sobriety creates devastation to hearts.

I watched you make quick cryptic decisions when things weren’t happening quick enough. Jobs, cars, healing. G-O-N-E. You didn’t give it time. I’m no different. People can say the exact same about me. We have PHD’s in others, but GED’s in ourselves. People watching. I’m never mad and will forever love your ghost. I’m praying one day, I get you back.

Same with me.-hm